Past I walk Away....

A new beginning in my life.
i started my previous blog, makes life interesting 6 years back when i started my life.it has just begun and i wanted something which could capture all the fun and exciting moments my life brought with it. i did capture all those amazing thoughts and moments in that blog, but it was a lot more. past brought with it a hectic life, a gush of over ambition and yes, alot of negativity too. while i made friends and memories for a life time and discovered a whole new in me, i also absorbed all the negativity around me, and couldn't stop it from taking over me. it dont regret it though since it was these 6 years that made me what i am, and this experience is gonna make me work my ass out and reach some place in my career which is good. off late, all the realizations occurred. i was suffering from within. my soul, i can say, was not at peace. and i realized that i am very sensitive to the negativity around me, i tend to notice and react to almost all the wibes people around me carry. i think it is only natural with this age. i can only understand the insecurities people go through at this age, and since my mental composition is different from theirs, i don't expect them to portray some super human ideal behavior. they are going to show some rude traits and no one can stop them. i allowed all this negativity around me to take over my thoughts and my existence and unknowingly, i let these people become my weaknesses. yes, with this long thought process happening, i realized that most of the problems i have had are becoz of me allowing the people issues become priorities in my life. that's what i have to deal with in my new life now. i will have priorities, i will have amazing moments, i will have a lot of hard work and i will have yet another process of discovering a new in me. but in this period, i sure don't want to miss on any good things because of the people and the people issues i have. with this, i make a promise to myself. i am not gonna allow any one to come too close to me, so that they start affecting the me within. it takes most of your time, and eventually you realize that it doesn't even matter. the other person who is taking up most of your thought space is busy enjoying with their other new priorities and they no more give shit about you. so why should i waste my time energy and tears. yes, its logical so lets be more logical and thing that Past is over now, and priorities i gonna change. i want these people to stay as good memories and i don't want to carry on any relationships further. i gave them a sacred place in my heart and they are going to be. but the process has stopped and i want it to be memorable and yes, stagnant. till i take some more time for this logic to seep into my mind, i will now start working on a new and a very important process for my existence also, i promise that unlike the previous blog, i will try to keep the negativity away from this one. its about my world which will be hard work , learning and experiences. good and bad, and in this process, my realization of my spiritual self and my Reunion with god and faith.