All alone

I was trying to figure out things which will make me feel better and easier.now i feel like things are making me feel worse than ever in life.been alone all these days.and i am not keeping well too,not been able to take food properly,lack of drinking water,so much of health issues i have got as of now.life is so mechanical.i am just pushing days.not been able to be creative these days.something r the other is stopping me here and there.i am person who will always be prepared for the next step wen i am involved in any work.And i dream a lot.I am person who will be thinking all the time about my future other than my sleeping hours..But now a days i have started thinking about my future 24/7.i want to do something big in this world and wish to big as well.And that is what my wish is all about.i missed things so much....! in my life.i can even say tat i have even missed my life.but rather telling that i will do my best ...! i want to say tat...! i will give my best in getting things back on the table.Eventually life will turn around fine as well.
one last thing i want to share....
Someone close to My heart has told me that if we focus on something in life,it may be anything.
All we have to do is keep thinking about it all the time in our subconscious mind.And it will get us in reaching our destination.And now i have decided to follow this.and i will certainly do this going forward.If this doesn't works out for me i will for sure have a question and will shoot it to that person wen i get chance..