"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" .

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" .

Its a nice feeling wen u know tat some1 likes you,someone thinks about you,someone needs you;but it feels much better wen u know tat someone never ever forgets your birthday."HAPPY BIRTHDAY" .

JULY 30th(The Date I cant forget in my life)

Ma Msg

Happy Birthday, My Love

I'd like to write you today a real
cool message! Different from everything I've
ever written or spoken to you. A message with no mistakes nor one single
drop
of sadness to blur the letters. That, when you read it, your heart beats
faster,
your eyes shine brighter and your lips smile as never before. A simple but
spontaneous
letter, that will make you a little bit happier!

I'd like to fill your "e-mail" with flowers, with stars, with smiles and with
all sorts of meaningful words you deserve. I'd like to put in it all the hearts
that love you unconditionally. Finally, we would have a very intimate party,
to celebrate the happening. I'm being pretentious, I know, but I really want
all this, because I wish you well.

To be original, I didn't buy you a present. The stores never renovate their
stocks and birthday cards never change! Everything is always the same …
so repetitive!
And also because, poor little me, I wouldn't even be able to send it to
you.
So, I decided to give something nobody else can give you, because it cannot
be found in a store, doesn't fit in an envelope and doesn't exist in the
card
selection of the web: my birthday present!

It's the most precious thing I have, because it is a little bit of myself. It's
a little key that opens the safe inside me, where you may find all that is pure,
true, sacred and personal. This little key is not of gold, but has immense value
because it comes wrapped with the earnest desire of seeing you always happy,
without ever being a burden on you. If you wish, you may call it "Friendship"
(or, even more appropriately, "Love")

Let the happiness I wish you today be with you ever and ever! How good it is
that you exist. How nice it is that you're important to me. And how wonderful
it is to be in the list of those you care for. If you didn't exist in my life,
there would be an enormous emptiness inside me, in time and in the world!

I am sure that God himself
endorses, smilingly, all that I have just written down …!

Happy birthday, my love!

Feeling Sick of everything

The other day i told i was happy to the core in the world,guys you know what ...? it turned the other way around the next moment.the happiness which i had was only for few minutes.Happiness in my life has become like an illusion act,i will feel tat there's happiness but wen i get there only then i will know. that there is so much of sadness in it,and i am vigorously searching and hunting for happiness in my life.dono wen i will able to find it.I am all most done.

I DREAM AS EVERYONE DO....! AND I DREAMT A LOT ABOUT MY FUTURE ..
WHAT IF....? OUR DREAM BECOMES someone else' s DESTINY....!
THAT'S WHEN YOU'L FEEL THE REAL PAIN....

Feeling so happy

Something gr8 to the core happened today in my life.And i am feeling so very happy to the core in this world.And there is no words to express it.After 5 n half months only today i felt like m living a life and i am still alive in this world.I pray Allah that this happiness should continue life long.I need nothing much.But i am ok with the feel and that is enough for me.And i will certainly be happy with it.Now i am just wondering what if...! if....? i am gonna get this happiness life long.If its gonna be so i think i will be the happiest person in this world.going forward hoping for the best.Lets c............

Positive and smooth

I am over all the negativity . i know i had it in abundance, but i really am done with it now. for good !

Have'nt blogged for a while cos life was keeping me a little occupied.Past came over and after staying with the memories for sometime,learnt quite a lot for myself too... culturally,spiritually.

Its been ages since shes gone now, and i have started with new things.i should have done it long back.But better late than never.

Life's looking good, materialism and negativity does get on to me at times with the high ambition i am nurturing. but as far as i can deal with it, its good

Have also been thinking in the right direction now,and I am consciously thinking less and learning more.Now that's better isnt it....?

All's good on the other end

As time is passing by,my wounds are also healing.just realized that i always leave a place with a few wounds,but over a period of time,they all heal, for good. hope this one too goes away leaving all the good things there.

I have been thinking of a few one liners to keep myself motivated.just thought of this one
I asked Allah why he did this to me,He said he waned to teach me,cos he loves me:)

All alone

I was trying to figure out things which will make me feel better and easier.now i feel like things are making me feel worse than ever in life.been alone all these days.and i am not keeping well too,not been able to take food properly,lack of drinking water,so much of health issues i have got as of now.life is so mechanical.i am just pushing days.not been able to be creative these days.something r the other is stopping me here and there.i am person who will always be prepared for the next step wen i am involved in any work.And i dream a lot.I am person who will be thinking all the time about my future other than my sleeping hours..But now a days i have started thinking about my future 24/7.i want to do something big in this world and wish to big as well.And that is what my wish is all about.i missed things so much....! in my life.i can even say tat i have even missed my life.but rather telling that i will do my best ...! i want to say tat...! i will give my best in getting things back on the table.Eventually life will turn around fine as well.
one last thing i want to share....
Someone close to My heart has told me that if we focus on something in life,it may be anything.
All we have to do is keep thinking about it all the time in our subconscious mind.And it will get us in reaching our destination.And now i have decided to follow this.and i will certainly do this going forward.If this doesn't works out for me i will for sure have a question and will shoot it to that person wen i get chance..

The Gift of Insults

I just love this story hope everyone will like it.

There once lived a great warrior. Though quite old, he still was able to defeat any challenger. His reputation extended far and wide throughout the land and many students gathered to study under him.

One day an infamous young warrior arrived at the village. He was determined to be the first man to defeat the great master. Along with his strength, he had an uncanny ability to spot and exploit any weakness in an opponent. He would wait for his opponent to make the first move, thus revealing a weakness, and then would strike with merciless force and lightning speed. No one had ever lasted with him in a match beyond the first move.

Much against the advice of his concerned students, the old master gladly accepted the young warrior's challenge. As the two squared off for battle, the young warrior began to hurl insults at the old master. He threw dirt and spit in his face. For hours he verbally assaulted him with every curse and insult known to mankind. But the old warrior merely stood there motionless and calm. Finally, the young warrior exhausted himself. Knowing he was defeated, he left feeling shamed.

Somewhat disappointed that he did not fight the insolent youth, the students gathered around the old master and questioned him. "How could you endure such an indignity? How did you drive him away?"

"If someone comes to give you a gift and you do not receive it," the master replied, "to whom does the gift belong?"

People's reactions to this story:

"The old warrior must have been thick-skinned!!!!!"

"I would hesitate (he who hesitates is lost) to call insults a gift, but this reminds me of child's saying, 'I'm made of rubber, you're made of glue, everything you say bounces off me and sticks to you.'"

"To win without violence is the greatest victory!"

"Reacting to insulting behavior only serves to give the insulting party EXACTLY what they want."

"Perhaps the master did accept the gift. The gift was victory. The master needed only stand there (and take it) to accept his gift."

"If you do not receive someone's gift of insults, you haven't been insulted." "The young whippersnapper obviously fell into his own trap. With the first insult he gave away victory to the old man by displaying his own weakness."

"It's not what happens to you that matters, it's what happens in you."

"This story reminds me of something I read in one of my aikido books. Two old,great masters were preparing to fight in a Kendo match, Japanese swordsmanship. When the match started, neither one moved from their fighting stance. In fact they both stayed exactly still for five minutes until the match was finally called a draw. If they made the first move it would reveal their weaknesses, and they would be defeated. Now that is awesome."

"An insult is like a glass of wine. It only affects you if you accept it."

"This story reminds me of the question, "If a tree falls in the forest, and no one is around to hear it, does it make a noise?" The same question can be asked in this story, paraphrasing "If an insult falls on deaf ears, who is insulted?"

"The older warrior had no other choice but to not move and stand fast. He understood his own limitations and through his years of experience also knew his opponents strengths. He was once a young warrior too."

"If I may be so crude, I'd say that our "infamous young warrior" got his ass kicked."

"This reminds me of my mother's words "If you throw stones into a slushy puddle, it is bound to splash back on you!" We are Indians (from Asia) and boy do we have thousands of such zen stories!!!"

"This is one of the best illustrations of Zen stories because it illustrates a universal principle (read "truth"). The setting for the story is appropriate because its lesson is a two-edged sword: there is the obvious consequence of the elder warrior refusing to accept the younger warrior's "gifts," and also the more subtle but implicit idea that a gift cannot be accepted without quid pro quo. The old warrior also had gifts to bestow -- knowledge of his skill and his weakness. The younger man, because he focused only on weaknesses was blind to the older warrior's proffered "gift," and therefore refused it. So the elder retained his strengths while the younger went away empty-handed."

"It illustrates the universal truth that "whatever you give is what you receive" or "whatever goes around, comes around".

confused...

I have been so confused and upset all these days.and was not knowing were i am heading towards.and not been able to enjoy my weekends and also my life.though i have enough space to breath always feeling so drowned dono y??.i always feel like i am missing something are the other in life.i hate this kind to life.though i know the solution for all this its not going to workout either ways.Cos this world will end if i get tat solution.trying hard to figure out.and giving my best to myself to find out the root cause.And i hope and believe everything should get back to normal sooner.I have lots and loads of plan to implement in life.But at this point not been able to bring up things out of my mind.feel like my potential level is getting down.and i don want to see this happening again in my life.i have learnt a lot of lessons in my life.and i want to tel everyone tat only if we fall we can get up.it might be for anything in life and it applies for everything in life.

Past I walk Away....

A new beginning in my life.
i started my previous blog, makes life interesting 6 years back when i started my life.it has just begun and i wanted something which could capture all the fun and exciting moments my life brought with it. i did capture all those amazing thoughts and moments in that blog, but it was a lot more. past brought with it a hectic life, a gush of over ambition and yes, alot of negativity too. while i made friends and memories for a life time and discovered a whole new in me, i also absorbed all the negativity around me, and couldn't stop it from taking over me. it dont regret it though since it was these 6 years that made me what i am, and this experience is gonna make me work my ass out and reach some place in my career which is good. off late, all the realizations occurred. i was suffering from within. my soul, i can say, was not at peace. and i realized that i am very sensitive to the negativity around me, i tend to notice and react to almost all the wibes people around me carry. i think it is only natural with this age. i can only understand the insecurities people go through at this age, and since my mental composition is different from theirs, i don't expect them to portray some super human ideal behavior. they are going to show some rude traits and no one can stop them. i allowed all this negativity around me to take over my thoughts and my existence and unknowingly, i let these people become my weaknesses. yes, with this long thought process happening, i realized that most of the problems i have had are becoz of me allowing the people issues become priorities in my life. that's what i have to deal with in my new life now. i will have priorities, i will have amazing moments, i will have a lot of hard work and i will have yet another process of discovering a new in me. but in this period, i sure don't want to miss on any good things because of the people and the people issues i have. with this, i make a promise to myself. i am not gonna allow any one to come too close to me, so that they start affecting the me within. it takes most of your time, and eventually you realize that it doesn't even matter. the other person who is taking up most of your thought space is busy enjoying with their other new priorities and they no more give shit about you. so why should i waste my time energy and tears. yes, its logical so lets be more logical and thing that Past is over now, and priorities i gonna change. i want these people to stay as good memories and i don't want to carry on any relationships further. i gave them a sacred place in my heart and they are going to be. but the process has stopped and i want it to be memorable and yes, stagnant. till i take some more time for this logic to seep into my mind, i will now start working on a new and a very important process for my existence also, i promise that unlike the previous blog, i will try to keep the negativity away from this one. its about my world which will be hard work , learning and experiences. good and bad, and in this process, my realization of my spiritual self and my Reunion with god and faith.

God's passivity

God's process is turning out to be more and more fun with every passing day. sometime, in the last 3 years, I realized that the amount of hard work and passion I was putting into my work was a lot more than most of the other people. however most of the times the results I would get were less than or same as the others. in my opinion I wanted the ultimate glory coz I knew that the hard work put was the maximum. there were times when I felt that I never got that love and affection back from the people the way I had given them. I gave them pure love from my heart and soul but I could only find apathy and disinterest from their side. comparison had now become an intrinsic part of me. comparison with people, with circumstances… comparison on the basis of everything. since I was going out of my way to achieve things, I wanted everything else to work out for me perfectly.
all this was because my same old obsession with idealistic behavior. and yet again, I suffered. there was then this time when I started questioning his activity. I never questioned his existence though. he was always there. but I would always question how it worked for him.. and it is now that I was re initiated in my life.
also, to understand human is not as difficult or or even half as pleasurable as understanding god. be it the product or the process. human gives you a lot of love, happiness at the very time of the action, in the present, whereas in case of god, we have to literally wait till eternity. but we need to understand that this happiness is short lived and it follows the same old law of nature where a fruit undeniably goes through different phases, from a bud, to a raw fruit, to a sweet and ripe one to a dry and rotten one. and here it depends on you how you can try your best to preserve that fruit. where as, the love for god is a tree which we have to nurture in the heart. no matter how long it will take to grow, eventually, it is going to give out sweet flowers. like happiness, everything , every relationship, every feeling, just everything is short lived… and that’s how it is meant to be by nature. when one understands this, life becomes easy to deal with.
when I entered work, I was very focused to my goal, for a long time, however, I did get lost. making friends having fun making myself happy and yes, becoming successful in everything I did became the sole goals of my life. in this period, I forgot the basics details of such relationships and let myself free to vulnerability and allowed all the people and all the things around to affect me.
however, I am glad I learned… and I am not ok with the idea of making more mistakes since this way I know always takes you back, with open arms and god supports you no matter what. but, the simple need of the hour I understand over here is that I have little time to get back to god, the time of just one lifetime and I want to use it not in making mistakes, but in making an attempt to understand him, for if I know him well, he will be willing as eager to accept me to his world with nothing but a smile on his face.

Need to work hard

i havent worked with full interest for a long time
and problems are now tiring me.
i dont really enjoy this kinda life. its really not fun. need to work. need to work hard. theres a lot of energy within, i need to chanelize it in the right direction. for the right task.

I want to repent for it and i pray things become normal again.

I was thinking yesterday that i am so lucky that god has already ordered me to learn about the alternative direction in life and maybe, i will be able to enable my soul to go back to him soon No i havent stopped sinning. infact, off late, i have become way too vulnerable and for myself i have committed a big sin... so i want to repent for it and i pray things become normal again. :)

It is impossible to repent of love. The sin of love does not exist.

It is much easier to repent of sins that we have committed than to repent of those that we intend to commit.