Wierd Phase Of Now

Quite alot of things on my mind. I am happy at with the way m looking at the bad things in my life with positivity. In the last few weeks i have been extremely stupid and m ashamed of my behavior. But what i am happy about is that, after months of false promises to myself, i am actually acting in a manner i should.Now its high time i take the responsibility and deal with things. its stupid to think that the problem disappears when i close my eyes. i need to deal with it. not avoid it. read the meaning of a 'fling' in the dictionary - its a brief indulgence of your impulses. Apart from that. its the time i accept that i have lost my pillars of strenght. so lets look at it this way, i have got my initial lessons, i have become the strong person i am. and now, out in the big bad world, i am by myself. Learning things in life at the expenses of others emotions sucks. its a sin. and i have to repent for it. in some way or the other.