Love In Vain?

Sometimes you can do nothing but stare right back at the person. A blank stare. A confused stare with an empty mind and an emotionless heart.

You do not know what to do with her.

You are concerned. You care. You understand. But you do not love.

she claims I am everything she wanted in a person—in a husband. Ambitious, decent, spontaneous, funny, romantic etc. but there is only one flaw… I am not in love with her. Notice, I said in-love, because I know that I have love for her but being in love with someone and loving them is different.

I do not have answers to her questions. I cannot respond to her flirty comments. How am I supposed to make her understand that my heart does not skip a beat when I see her… that hers touch does not make me melt inside?

How should I deal with the fact that she looks up to me? That she associates me with everything that is beautiful and pretty in this world…. That she loves me?

Am I guilty? Sympathetic? Concerned? Or just plain sensitive?

I wish I could do more. I can’t. It doesn’t feel right


"I can hear your heart crying out for me…
(And it keeps on saying) Come on in, come on in…and save me."