No Self Flagellation..But No Self Pity Either.

Right now,i was about to start cursing my game.wanted to play the same self flagellation game...i was just gonna be harsh to myself for delaying the GRE so much... and then i thought of going and talking to .i said to myself that i needed someone to tell me that its ok.. and that i should take the GRE just when i feel right about it.
But wait..
Then i thought
I dont need any one to tell me if things are ok or not. i mean i was strong enough to handly my own situations and since when did i start relying on support .. that too emotional support. just then i realized that off that i had become way too vulnerable. and yes, the reason is NOTHING else, but the age, and the hormones and yes, i am sure they are the only reason why i am becoming so increasingly emotional and vulnerable. but no, these emotions are a part of my phyicial metarial being and i wont let them take over my soul being, my self being... so
no sympathising with myself
I am glad i have decided not to talk to any one before i get done with my GRE which is now very soon.
booking my date tomorrow.

I am starting to get exited now.
this is one load on my head. a heavy weight load which is gonna be off soon and i want to cherish it, enjoy is, and most importantly take extremely good care of it, so that is makes me proud one day

wow. i am writing well tonit. i like it..i am being able to express myself really well. so yay