illusion Talk

My greatest failure would be when I fell completely
in love with this boy for 5 years and although it's a long story,
he ended up falling for me in the end but it almost wasn't
enough for me. he put me through so much emtional pain
(unintentionally, only because I was so in love with him)
that I wanted revenge deep down. I didn't want him to ever stop
loving me (because it happened before) that I got so obsessed
with him it eventually drove him away.
I was trying to keep him forever, trying so hard infact
I didn't realize it had brainwashed me and he had taken my sanity
along with my heart - he will always have my stupid heart.
so yeah,
my biggest failure was driving away the love of my
life in fear that he might stop loving me one day.

I've learnt to, not get so obsessed in relationships and that
things won't always turn out how yu imagined,
youre one true love you thouht you would spend the
rest of your life with, won't,,, always be there for you.
just because someone SAYS they will love you forever
and promises you such things,
doesn't always mean it's true.